Kids

I didn't know happiness till I had my son. Sure I thought I was happy and fulfilled, but I wasn't. I didn't know love until he came along. I thought I knew what it meant to love and give your whole heart to someone, I didn't. I thought I knew how to enjoy life and live each day to its fullest, no I didn't. When my little boy came along my world was flipped upside down. Laughing never felt so good, smiling never felt as warm. I have a love for him I didn't know existed until he came along. Parents used to always tell me these things but I looked at their kids and had to take their word for it cause frankly most kids drove me nuts...until that is, I had one. I rejoice when I see a poopie diaper cause that means he is meeting his "quota". I proudly walk around with bits of throw up and pee somewhere on my clothes and it doesn't matter. My son smiles and my heart skips a beat or more like melts. I hold him everyday and squeeze really tight and thank God for every day that I have with him. I will stand there doing the same silly thing for an hour if Jake likes it, even if every bone in my body says "Stop! No more!" Can't remember the last time I had a hot or even lukewarm meal. Not to mention sleeping longer than 5 hours before waking up cause his pacifer has fallen out. (We are working on that one) I could go on and on, and for those of you who have kids you know what I mean and I am sure you feel the same way. My mom gave me a big hug the other day and I realized that she loves me the way I love my son, so I squeezed a little harder cause if I were hugging Jake I would want him to do that. My parents have loved me this much my whole life? I never knew it, but how could I? I have never loved like this until I had my own. So God loves me this much even though I never loved Him back? i mean really love Him the way it's supposed to be. How could I? I never knew what it was like to love until 6 months ago when I was holding Jake in my arms. And God has worn my "throw up", my bad attitudes, lack of pretty much everything on His sleeves, loving me long before I even knew how to love Him. And honestly? I probably still can't love Him the way I should cause does any child love their parents they way their parents love them? No. It's impossible.

Rant...

I can't believe that this week is our last week in our apartment before we move into a house...WHAT?! And now we are packing which is no fun. I am one of those people who will pull things out and I know things need to get thrown away but then I stop and reminisce about old times and then have trouble throwing stuff away. Or I look at everything I need to pack and get so overwhelmed that I just stop and stare, then about 20 min. goes by and I haven't done a thing. Good thing Mark is good with that stuff cause it would never get done. Here I sit taking "a break" while my husband is diligently packing things away and tossing the junk out. But hey, I vacuumed today and took care of a baby! Whoo hoo! Oh and folks come January I will be a bonafied certified pilates mat instructor!!!!! Yeah! For those of you who know me well, you know that is one of my greatest passions. I love the feeling of my abs being torn apart and my inner thighs on fire :) Hahaha there is such a high that comes from thinking you are not going to make it out alive and then making it through class. It's not really that bad but sometimes it feels that way. Pilates has changed my life, I am a HUGE advocate for it and I am so excited to inspire people to feel great and look great. K, I am really distracted by the TV right now so I shall leave you all until next time!

Eating Raw

So after going to the Temecula farmer's market I decided it's time to go raw. I picked up this really good trail mix that has dried berries, raw chocolate, and coconut. Then all was confirmed when I went to my folks house and got to talk to a lady that eats raw and is a certified vegan and raw chef. Now don't get me wrong...raw meat is NOT included in this diet. No amount of money would posses me to eat raw meat. In fact in a raw diet you are supposed to completely remove meat and dairy. Anyhow, I have been doing it the last week and have felt great! It really hasn't been that hard. I am not 100% raw but if I do eat something else it's at least gluten free. So last night on my way home I decided to get a burger as a last resort cause I was hungry! And In and Out's burgers are gluten free cause the buns are made out of sponge bread. Well last night I ended up horrible stomach cramps and let's just say it exited my body quickly. It was amazing to me how when you treat your body well, it has no desire for anything else! It's nice to get back to the basics of food. I mean God really provided every nutrient we need in nature and I intend to take advantage of it! Oh and don't get me started on Bee Pollen. That's right eating fresh raw bee pollen is one of the best things you can do for your body. It is the ONLY food on earth that contains all 22 nutrients your body needs to survive. It has more protein than meat! Look it up, it's quite fascinating. Oh! And Mark and I just closed escrow on a house!!!!!! YEAHHH!!!! So cool. And I just have to say, my son is the cutest little man ever! I just love the little guy!

What a fun day!

Today I got to meet up with a friend who lives in Colorado. She came to Temecula with her daughter who is 10 months older than Jake. Man we had a great time! We went to the farmer's market, went olive oil tasting and walked around Old Town. It was so great to hang with another mom and have no worries about how our kids are acting cause we both have kiddos. But Jake and Kensy both were perfect angels. She loved touching jake's face and he couldn't believe that there was another baby besides him. :) Ah it was wonderful. I picked up this really good raw trail mix at the farmers market. Oooo I am addicted! I got some really cute clothes for Jake at Old Navy. I didn't realize they were so inexpensive! My boy is gonna be one handsome stud! Now I am home cuddling next to Mark and watching our shows. Today was a GREAT day. And tomorrow...we sign escrow papers!

My first blog

They guys! Well this is my official first blog. Ah, feels good. Baby is asleep for now and I am sitting with a cup of tea in a dirty house writing instead of cleaning :) Maybe that is just wrong but I need some rest. Got a chance to go on a play date today to visit my friend Sarah and her baby Joshua. We had a really good time. Jake threw a temper tantrum, threw up, got a new change of clothes but in the end (even though I was stressed) we had a nice time. So anyone want to go on a cruise? ME! Haha I do get to go on a cruise in Jan! Whoot-woo! I am really looking forward to just getting away with family. It's the big annual Stewart family vacation. Oh man, free food, entertainment, babysitting...good times. I lit my pumpkin candle today. Fall is my favorite time of year. I love the weather and the change it brings. Mark and I have been taking nightly walks and it's so nice to be out when it's just a tiny bit chilly. We bundle Jake up and he loves it. I must say despite the temper tantrums, the throw up and the *surprise* on the couch, I really have a great kid. I just feel so blessed and am so happy. I love being a mom. K, now I must clean but I thought it would be nice to write a post...and it was. Hey if any of you are looking to take a vacation, I know of a really great deal. It's 260 for 7 days and 6 nights and any high end resort. Mark and I are going for our anniversary in May :) Yippee!

Toodles!
-Brittny